I took this screen shot of my Wii image last January. And six months before, I was lighter. Emotionally and psychically. In the last two years I have gained nearly 20 pounds. I call it The Weight of Autism.
And last night I stepped on the scale. I have passed the 160 pound mark.
I am overweight. I am far from in shape. And I am not happy. It's hard getting dressed in the morning because I try on several outfits trying to conceal my weight - some days are more successful than others. The thought of going someplace nice depresses me because even though I have closet full of clothes, the items I want to wear don't fit. And I can't stand going shopping especially when I have to keep buying bigger sizes. Nothing fits comfortably anymore and it makes me incredibly self conscious.
I know that if I don't do something about it, I will keep gaining weight.
I hate New Year resolutions. I never keep them. But this isn't about a resolution. It's about making a life style change. It's about making better choices. It's about being healthier. Because The Boy needs me to be.
For my other life style changes check out my post on Parents.com - Resolutions For An Autism Parent
It's hard watching ones weight on top of being a spouse, working and being a parent, so to tell the truth, I'm over weight too. But I accept it because I don't have 2 hours a day to work out like I used to.
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